Yesterday my practitioner shared something marvelous with me.
“Enjoy the revealing of all that needs to be completely eradicated.”
The first time she said it, I laughed.
I laughed because the idea of truly enjoying something challenging that is surfacing seemed, well, a little like wishful thinking. I knew what she meant, but I wasn’t sure I was quite a the level of enjoying what surfaces. So I thought to myself, Well, that’s a good goal to have.
But at the end of our conversation, when she shared this prayer, I understood in my heart what she meant. And when I felt it in my heart, I felt the joy that just an hour earlier I thought almost impossible to feeL
“Open my eyes that I may see in Truth whatever needs to be revealed, corrected, released.”
I began this practice of wholeness precisely so I could see what needs to be revealed, corrected, released — so that I can live a holistic heart-centered Love-based life.
I did this because I know that I have gotten to a point where I am tripping over the dirt I have swept under the rug and getting caught in the cobwebs I’ve neglected to clean. I know that the things that scare me, that I avoid, that I have ignored for so long are the precisely things that need to be seen.
I have asked for this. And so, if I have asked for it, and it is being given to me, why not be glad, give thanks, rejoice — as my lifelong morning prayer says?
It would be like saying you love going to horror movies and then hating every minute of it and wishing you weren’t there.
It would be like telling everyone you love roller coasters and then wishing you were home on the sofa.
It would be like announcing you love to travel the world and then being okay with being homesick the entire time.
I asked for this. I asked to see what needs to be seen. So if that’s happening, why aren’t I enjoying what I asked for?
Well, here’s why: Fear wants to keep us right where it has us.
Let me say that again, because it’s HUGE.
Fear has us where it wants us, and if we wake up and lean into Love, fear loses its job.
Fear needs us to feel afraid. Fear needs us to avoid the truth, Fear wants us to believe there is more and more scary stuff so that we forget that the Power of Love really is the only healing power there is.
So if we recognize that whatever surfaces is a gift in the sense that we are seeing something we’ve buried and are willing to go, then fear is out of a job.
Now to be real, often what surfaces isn’t pretty and we will feel fear or shame or doubt or the desire to run for the hills. But if we can lean more and more on Love, then Love will show us that anything unlike Love isn’t real. And slowly but surely, we will be less and less impressed by fear.
Here’s how that worked for me yesterday:
WHAT HAPPENED: I woke up realizing that my old solutions aren’t going to work in a new world
WHAT I INITIALLY FELT: Scared. Worried. Lonely.
WHAT I INITIALLY TOLD MYSELF: You know that this is just fear trying to get your ear. Reach out for help.
WHAT I INITIALLY WANTED: For it all to go away. For things to feel easy.
WHAT I DID: I reached out for help.
WHAT I WOULD HAVE LIKED TO HAVE DONE: Not felt anything challenging at all.
WHAT FEAR SAID: You don’t know anyone here. You’re living in a strange place. Your cottage has bugs and mice and it’s too hot when it’s hot and too cold when it’s cold. And you’re far away from anyone you know. And you don’t have any speaking gigs. And how are you going to make it and do this? Oh, it was a long and convincing monologue.
WHAT LOVE SAID: This sweet cottage is in the perfect location. It is charming and has everything you need. You have the most wonderful neighbor. The nicest landlord ever. You can go out your front door and every walk you take is beautiful. All of the people you have met here are lovely. You know people within a three-hour drive. You have wanted to explore this area for years. I brought you here for a reason. Trust that reason and stop listening to fear!
WHAT FELT UNTRUE AND/OR OLD: Fears about money and supply. The idea that movement means safety. The need to go back to an old way of making a living. The idea that community means being in the same place. (I actually love being a bit of a hermit. Always have.)
WHAT FELT TRUE AND NEEDS ATTENTION: You cannot go back to the old way. None of us can. We all have to be willing to release what was not viable or holistic. What was fear-based and habitual. And you are in the perfect place and this is the right time to do this. Trust and lean into Love.
WHAT IS NOT WHOLE: The old hustle to survive mentality. The idea that this is how it has worked in the past and so I’d better go back to the old familiar. The vestigial beliefs of lack unworthiness, aloneness.
HOW I WILL PRACTICE WHOLENESS:
I will remember that we are all being asked to release what no longer serves our world.
I will remember that we have all been led here by Love.
I will recognize that when I feel afraid, it is not me but fear that is afraid of losing its job.
I will remember that whatever surfaces is coming up to be released and so eradicated.
I will know that Love never leads us someplace where it has not been before us.
I will remind myself that Love always knows the way even if I feel I don’t.
I will find joy and gratitude in this process, because I have asked for it.
I will stop conversing with fear and remember that familiar does not equal good.
I will lean into Love and trust where I am being led.
I will be grateful for this new opportunity.
I will remember that what I am learning will help others learn it too.
I will know that this heart-centered work is not optional.
I will lean into Love instead of relying on fear-based human will.
I will know that what surfaces was never real to begin with . Only Love is real.
I will be follow and rejoice in Love all the rugged and joyful way.
I will live with a fundamental Love-based expectation of good for us all.
And here’s today’s heart-centered video: