During this month, I will create this new heart-centered practice of wholeness by sharing the evolution of its process.
Heart-centered practice is a journey not a destination. I hope that by sharing in this way, you’ll see that each of us can create our own heart-centered practices that get us out of our fear-based problem-solving heads and into our Love-led hearts
Each day I will dive deep into an incident or feeling or experience that made me realize that a part of my life is not Whole. And I will work through the process of getting out of my divisive head and into my holistic heart.
WHAT HAPPENED: I shared a work frustration with a colleague.
WHAT I INITIALLY FELT: Anxious about being honest. Needing approval from other colleagues. And then ultimately relieved to be able air my feelings and be honest without getting that approval.
WHAT I INITIALLY TOLD MYSELF: Don’t do this. Don’t rock the boat. Do this. It may help get things unstuck.
WHAT I INITIALLY WANTED: To feel some kind of relief. To offer another perspective. To get things flowing.
WHAT I DID: I wrote an email to share my point of view.
WHAT I WOULD HAVE LIKED TO HAVE DONE: Been more confident that I am allowed to have an opinion and so to have.spoken up earlier.
WHAT FEAR SAID: You’re only saying this for yourself. You’re worried that you’re not doing a good job and so you’re saying this purely out of self-interest. What if everyone else in the group gets pissed at you? What if you hurt someone’s feelings? What if your friend who brought you into this situation gets angry with you?
WHAT LOVE SAID: Are you writing this with Love? Are these words the right words to let Love shine through into this situation.
WHAT FELT UNTRUE AND/OR OLD: A childlike fear of not being allowed to have my own thoughts, beliefs and opinions. The story that good people just shut up and suffer and never rock the boat.
WHAT FELT TRUE AND NEEDS ATTENTION: There is a sense of stuck-ness and circling around the same things over and over again for us all.
WHAT IS NOT WHOLE: I am afraid of other people. I am afraid of hurting other people. I am afraid of being thought of as a “bad person”. I am an avoider. When I avoid, I complain behind the scenes instead of offering productive solutions. I am particularly afraid of anger from some of my more volatile friends and colleagues. So I avoid conflicts. I avoid people and situations that scare me or make me feel badly about myself.
HOW I WILL PRACTICE WHOLENESS:
I will lean into Love wherever I feel fear.
I will invite Love to show me how to face down these old fears.
I will invite Love to show me where I am in avoidance.
I will see others and myself through the eyes of Love.
I will be willing and eager to let go of fear’s stories and let Love write new ones.
I will witness the fear and not let it fool me into believing I actually am afraid. Even if it’s visceral.
I will let Love speak and write for me and trust that Love’s words will be heard with Love, in Love, as Love.
I will keep choosing Love.
Unlike last month, this month’s video’s will serve as complements to these blogs — and both together will comprise the practice. Here is today’s video:
